My thoughts written down.....

Life in general brings ups and downs, twists and turns--it's a roller coaster if you will. However the one and only thing that I have found to be so constant is my relationship with my Heavenly Father. He's always there in life's happy moments like finding out that you are pregnant, in life's not so happy moments like your cousin committing suicide, and in life's in between moments. He's there all the time, it's whether or not we choose to accept and acknowledge His presence. He's faithful when we couldn't be anymore faithless, He loves unconditionally while we are only loving back under certain conditions. He is speaking to us when we keep running farther and farther away. He is bringing conviction to our lives even though we don't want to change. He cares soo much about us--He knows every hair on our heads for pete's sake. :) I am so thankful that He is all these things. My life wouldn't be much of a life without Him in it. So, sorry if

This generation needs to wake up. I am so tired of people living their lives for Christ by sitting on the fence. We need to start being examples for other young people to follow--examples of a high standard. We need to wake up from complacency and live BIG for God. We need to rise up to where God has called us to be in the body of Christ. We need to quit being stagnant in our walks. We need to draw the line and then run from it, not to it. I am just so tired of people claiming the name of Jesus, but yet there is no standard. There is nothing different about a person who claims to be a Christian than a person that is lost out in this world. There should be a difference, it's light and dark we are talking about, it is clear as black and white. (not in a racial sense either) We can't expect to change this world if we have any ties to this world. We need to stand out by showing love to the hurting, broken-hearted, damaged people. I was once one of those lost and hurting people. I w

"Do not fear anything except the Lord Almighty. He alone is the Holy One. If you fear Him, you need fear nothing else." --Isaiah 8:13 (NLT) I guess I don't truly fear God b/c if I did, I would not fear anything else. Last night I had a dream which occurs every so often, usually 3 main people two of which are the same every time and the other changes. I don't usually remember my dreams, but I remember these every time and usually wake up with fear and it's hard for me to fall back asleep. One of my friends asked a couple of us what we fear, two out of the four of us answered, but we didn't get to myself and the one that asked the question. I have a couple things I fear. I think a lot of us do. Some people may fear: -dying -being embarassed -speaking in front of others -not fulfilling your purpose -letting people down -getting too close to people -not being able to have children -not pleasing God -etc. the list goes on and on The fear

So lately my priorities have been majorly out of whack. I've been putting things that I enjoy doing like hanging out, having fun, and doing whatever it is that I want to do. However I don't think it is suppose to be that way. My life needs discipline, a discipline that will cause this to happen in my priorities: 1. God 2. My husband 3. Everything else and last thing on my list should be myself. I've been doing things to satisfy my flesh, what makes me "feel" good, and not paying much attention to the One who loves me more than anyone. He desires our attention, our everything. More of Him and less of me. ~John 3:30 I need to clean up my life. Or should I say surrender myself to Him so He can clean up my life? Yeah, that is the best way. I would just mess it up if I tried to do it. I am nothing without Christ being number one in my life. My only need is HIM, and Him alone. He will take care of everything else, I just need to back off and let Him take it all. I am ti

Trying to figure out where I went wrong. Trying to figure out how I can get back on track. Somehow I think that I am not suppose to know these answers, or should I say I probably wouldn't be asking these questions if I wouldn't have gotten off track in the first place. Jesus reigns though. He is faithful and good. Not dwelling on things, just trying to make sense of things. Trying to see what I need to do different in and with my life. I don't want to keep going around and around this mountain. I would like to climb straight up it and reach the top in victory. It's a process, right? Right.

It is funny how you think you might have things down pat, you even talk to a friend and say how you don't understand how people don't get it. How simple it seems to make a CHOICE, but it's not that way when you are the one having to make that choice. This is what I don't get:(scattered thoughts so beware) I guess I just labeled myself. Things seem simple when looking at other people's lives. Basically judging them and telling myself how not capable they are. I repent for ever saying things like this Lord. Show me how to get this LOG out of my eye before I worry about that speck in anothers eye. All I need to be concerned about is me, but oh how hard this is, when you see things and hear things. I need a change of heart I suppose. I need to "let go and let God" what a simple saying, but oh how hard it is to actually follow through. I like how I thought I gave it to Him. Thought I was on the path to recovery. Apparently not. As a "sold out&qu

"We need to rely on the resurrection life of Jesus on a much deeper level than we do now. We should get in the habit of continually seeking His counsel on everything, instead of making our own commonsense decisions and then asking Him to bless them. He cannot bless them; it is not in His realm to do so, and those decisons are severed from reality. If we do something simply out of a sense of duty on the throne of our life, instead of enthroning the resurrection life of Jesus. We are not told to 'walk in the light' of our conscience or in the light of a sense of duty, but to 'walk in the light as He is in the light....' (1 John 1:7). When we do something out of a sense of duty, it is easy to explain the reasons for our actions to others. But when we do something out of obedience to the Lord, there can be no other explanation--just obedience. That is why a saint can be so easily ridiculed and misunderstood." ---Oswald Chambers This is not a time to be play