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Letting go, but letting God.

It is funny how you think you might have things down pat, you even talk to a friend and say how you don't understand how people don't get it. How simple it seems to make a CHOICE, but it's not that way when you are the one having to make that choice.
This is what I don't get:(scattered thoughts so beware) I guess I just labeled myself. Things seem simple when looking at other people's lives. Basically judging them and telling myself how not capable they are. I repent for ever saying things like this Lord. Show me how to get this LOG out of my eye before I worry about that speck in anothers eye. All I need to be concerned about is me, but oh how hard this is, when you see things and hear things.
I need a change of heart I suppose. I need to "let go and let God" what a simple saying, but oh how hard it is to actually follow through. I like how I thought I gave it to Him. Thought I was on the path to recovery. Apparently not.
As a "sold out" Christian, you are probably going to go through life and get burned a couple times, alright maybe a lot of times. ha. It is just a matter of letting it go though. You might still have the scars when it is all said and done, but you will come out a better person. You might even be able to sow into someone elses life by sharing with them what you have been through. That is one thing to look forward to when going through the fire.
My life has become somewhat complacent, in the way I walk stuff out. I think I know what I should do and could tell anyone else how to overcome something and act like my life is peaches and cream. When the truth really is, I don't have anything together, I am not perfect, I can't help anyone b/c I can't even help myself. All I can do is pray, and yes, there is definately power in that. It's about the only weapon I got left.
I am in this place right now of desperation, exhaustion, and not to mention a little bitterness. BUT GOD is good. HE is all I need. HE is faithful when I am not. HE loves me even when I don't acknowledge Him daily. He is my all sufficient. He is my rock, my foundation that cannot be shaken. "He is all that I am not."

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  1. neil ecksteinOctober 2, 2008 at 10:31 AM

    righteous transparency! keep up the writing!

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  2. AnonymousOctober 3, 2008 at 4:34 PM

    Have I told you ILOVE YOU BIG!! REALLY. Thanks for being real. And my friends. I LOVE YOU LOVE YOU LOVE YOU !

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